Monday, May 28, 2012
Four Years Ago Today....
......Our lives changed with 2 little lines.
It was on this day in 2008 that we started the ride of our lives.
It had been our second month on Clomid, to help us conceive. I had tested mid day the day before and been disappointed with a BFN...or, as we know it in trying to conceive language, a big fat negative, so I wasn't expecting much. A few things had started to play with my mind as far as symptoms went, but I pushed them to the back of m mind because I didn't want to get my hopes up and be let down with another negative. I figured if I didn't expect or hope for anything, then the disappointment wouldn't be as much of a surprise or a let down like all of the other months.
I went to bed the night before, determined to hold my pee alllll night long and pee on another test first thing the next morning. I got up at 6 and took the test, then laid back down in bed to wait the 3 minutes. I went back to check the test exactly 3 minutes later and at first glance, figured it was negative, as usual. I picked the test stick up to get a close look, one last time, before throwing it out, and that's when I saw it. The faintest hint of a line that I saw just as the light hit it the right way. But I still didn't know....I still wasn't sure. I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me! I woke Frank up, and he said he could see it (and he wasn't even in a well lit room!), and told me to let it sit for a few more minutes. I did, and when I looked a couple of minutes later, it was still VERY VERY faint, but definitely there.
We were PREGNANT!!
Another test taken the next day came out a little bit darker (That's the photo you see above...sorry for the awful, awful quality. My camera at that time was a cheap dollar store special!).
A couple of weeks later, and we were surprised with the news that we were expecting TWINS!
Fast forward 3 years later, and here we are, with the 2 more amazing, beautiful, smart, talented, crazy, funny, loving, sweet, warm hearted children we could ever ask for. They have brought so much to our lives, and have changed us so much, in ways they will never know. I never thought, back when that test turned positive that fateful May day, that it would lead us to where we are today, and I am ever so thankful for the blessings bestowed on us with Connor & Merasia.